Telling Them How You Feel

Nobody tells you how your hands shake.
Nobody tells you about the dread
The airless
Trembling
When you say the words,
Give the syllables to them like
Baring your secrets for the world to see.
Spit out your heart between
Shaking lips
And wait.
Wait
Trembling
Wishing you could suck the words back in
Lock them away, make it
Un-happen.

Nobody tells you how your hands shake.
Nobody tells you about the euphoria
The airless
Trembling
When they respond, and it's
Better than you ever hoped for.
When they say the words,
Accept you, and
Give something back.

Nobody tells you how your hands shake.
Nobody tells you about the relief that washes over your whole body
Loosens your shoulders
Lightens your head until you're
Floating.
Weightless with
Sheer
True
Joy.

For Cal
written in memory of 10/26/2014